Meli's world

yes But. My big But... maybe not one but many over and over again. Today I turn 26 years old, and if you have wondered why I haven't written much in the past couple of weeks, its because I have something that i have been working on. Something I need to tackle. Something I need to conquer. Its funny how something that's never bothered me much at all could have crept up on me and affected me so much with one step on the scale. My weight is out of control and I need to stop it, before it stops me. I have struggled with weight issues, body image and just being used to being called "thick" and "big" since I was in middle school. Problem back then was that I wasn't big.  I was bigger than most girls I went to school with and my sister, but looking back to how much i weighed, i was not overweight. My problem started then. I had a family who I don't think meant any harm but would always tell me  I was big, I was gaining weight, I had big thighs...etc...

 So I've been reading lots of blogs, and watching lots of spoken word.  I've come up with new ideas and was reminded to keep God first.  I always knew writing and expressing was my calling.  I didn't know how He'd use it so I started to write.  To write about experiences and all HE has done.  To tell you about my life and the things HE made right.  Not to brag about me as if I did it alone, but to point you to Christ, the one who died for me and for you,  so that we wouldn't have to.  Its a matter of life or death and I need to warn you.  You're headed nowhere fast and your chances of dying are 1 out of 1.  You need to know there is more to life than what you've been living.  Salvation is free, His grace, love and mercy,  You can be forgiven.  I don't know what else He will do with my life,  but I want to continue about Him to write.  I don't want to place limits on what He could do.  His thought...