Meli's world

If I am going to be honest, when I started this blog I wanted to name it Meli's Messes, because when it comes to marriage, and motherhood, I feel I have made a lot of messes of it all. I struggle with feeling inadequate and like a complete failure at times. I am not sure what triggers this when I thought of myself as "confident" and the fact my truth is rooted in God's word (for the most part). Perhaps it is the pictures we paint on social media of perfection. Perhaps its our brains are oversaturated with looking at images of other Moms who seem to do it all. Work 60 hours a week, meal prep cooking gourmet healthy meals for the family, working out 5 hours a day even becoming body builders, or running a home based business, all while being able to homeschool or be present at every school event, and looking completely wonderful with their blowdried hair looking like they came out of a salon or stepped out of a Tresemme commercial. Their nails are done...

                  Every Monday morning, I look back on a weekend well spent with my kids and I usually reflect with a picture of my Em & Ems (Emmanuel and Emeli) as I call them on my facebook. I miss them so much while I'm at work, that like most working parents, I feel guilty and can't wait to be with them again. That is until about 230pm when I walk into my parent's house to pick them up, that their fighting and chaos remind me that they look cuter in the picture. A picture, where all I see is their smiles and cute faces.                      My daughter is not even 3 yet, and she is already set on telling me no for the simplest commands. Its never that she doesn't want to do what I'm instructing her to; It seems instead she just prefers to do things her way or feel she is control. I never thought ...

Last Thursday I was so excited for the upcoming long weekend. We had plans to go to the movies Friday night, a nice relaxing day Saturday, celebrating my dad's birthday Sunday and maybe enjoying some fun in the sun on Monday. However, I should have known by Friday morning when I got the call Manny was napping that most likely none of my plans were going to take place. Manny, our 6 year old. Never naps. And rarely ever does he say he does not feel good. Hence the reason for concern. He said he wasn't feeling too well before crashing on grandma's bed. However knowing how strong his immune system and him are, I still envisioned a nice long weekend full of fun and things to do. When I picked the kids up from my moms house, he once again fell asleep. Making this his 2nd nap of the day. In my mind, something wasn't quite right. He can't go from never napping to napping twice in a row! So our movie plans were canceled and instead we stayed home to take care of our bab...