A word to hold on to.....

In the past couple of months as Emerald and I were seeking direction as to what is next and how I could pursue the teaching career I felt called to.... we brainstormed, prayed and listened and waited like never before.

As we came to a decision, I know that trusting and following God's lead is the right thing to do.... however as we move in to the unknown, fear has tried to settle in and cripple my mind. I have to admit I like to know things will work out. Im a planner, a budgeter, and I like to feel I'm in control. I'm excited to be moving in another level of obedience yet terrified of not knowing how it will all work out or if we are even doing the wise thing.

Today was rough.... with so many things up in the air and me wrestling with my emotions, I don't even think my husband wants to be around me. So I'm listening to worship music and Jesus Culture- Let it Echo comes on. In the comments that I never read.... is a word I felt was straight from God to my heart. It had this verse and it spoke about us jumping from the cliff of comfort into the unknown and how He will never fail us!!! Ohhh how my Jesus comforts my heart and reminds me its not about me at all, but all about what He could do.....

I'm holding on to this word!

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